Wednesday, April 06, 2011

relationships, sometimes blurry

And then i went to sleep, mainly because i didn't want to talk anymore, or because the way you hold me, hurts me!

You wouldn't understand, and you wanted to hold on tighter, afraid to lose me, but you had already lost me, you see, i had already made up my mind. You just sealed my decision, and it ended, i made a decision, you helped me reach the "conclusion" and it was all easy after that. We drifted apart, and the only part i regret is how did i even think it would all work out, it should have, it didn't, i should have known myself better than that. I should have known it all along, maybe i did, maybe i was just afraid, i was afraid that i will float, away, drift... so i decided to hang on to something, something more stable.

I realised, it was so comfortable with A, so easy, how come it was so difficult with you. Maybe i wasn't trying hard enough, so i tried, harder, but then ended up burning out, tired... Then, i stopped, pondered and contemplated my life- I needed to change direction, and i did. sorry

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