Tasting "not-testing" you

Have you ever wondered about tasting me, and by that I don't mean "testing" in anyway. Maybe they are both the same things on the surface, but they are intrinsically different variables, they as different as are the deep sponges that soak in the ocean water. From the top, they all look the same, but ask a deep-sea diver...

Have you ever wanted to taste Buddha, see what he really felt, thought, understood, his decisions that he made, the decisions that he decided to not-make, the mistakes that he wanted to fix, and the mistakes he wouldn't undo if he got another chance. Have you ever thought of tasting Jesus, how he felt to wake up from the dead, with that big cross tied to his body, how he would look up in the sky and say "wish i had a mother instead of a father". Have you ever thought of tasting that tree which brings forth the understanding of giving, not as a self-sacrifice, but as a process of growth, to procreate, to expand.

Have you ever thought of tasting yourself, how it feels to be not-you sometimes, to learn something that always scared you, to look back, and relax, smile at the stupid jokes which you never thought were funny? Have you ever thought of tasting me, see how I think, of you, of the world, of people around me, of the Buddha, the Jesus, the Tree, of life, masochism, pain and bitterness? Maybe tasting by itself is a BIG JOKE! But have you ever thought of tasting that Big Joke and then regretting it for the rest of your life?

I know I sound very stupid, in fact, sometimes I like to do that, maybe just to taste you. And no way, I am not testing you- i think its too simple to test people, tasting them is more of a personal thing- it is as though I am willing to take that risk of "feeling" something without knowing whether it would be painful/blissful later. It might leave a sweet tenderness in my life, or maybe I will rinse my mouth for the rest of my life to get rid of the "after taste" of you. Testing you would be an insult, to what I feel for you, to what I value my feelings. Sometimes it is better to know the limits, but sometimes its just fun to roll with it!!!