the void engulfs again...

How does it really feel when the void engulfs? Feels like, like, like-- void, right? It is a weird feeling of nothing ness, as though i can almost taste the emptiness, and yes, there is a difference between "nothingness" and emptiness, one of about completion, and another is more of an "aftertaste" of a very bad stressful day, where you don't feel like doing anything besides lie down and sleep.

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Sometimes i feel like a "background noise", a sound that just exists there, without any affect or significance, as though it just blends in, somehow.

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Sometimes it is difficult to take anything at the face value when your gut tells you otherwise. Harder is to find words that would fit in the silence between the sentences/words. Hardest is to acknowledge that the words fit in the "pause" so well- So well, that it is scary!

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Which is more worrying- someone gives you a cold shoulder while you approach, or that the same person is making/taking that extra step to acknowledge your presence?

That reminds me, I quite like it when someone gives me a cold shoulder, it is amusing, but that someone has to be random someone, not someone who matters to me... but well, analysis is fun, and so is the humour behind self-deprecation!

I wonder why do we dream of the same person so often? I haven't dreamt of A, its weird, for a very long time. Do we dream of someone because we think of them often or is it because they think of us often? It would be interesting to know- maybe there is a third factor, that there is some kind of deep connection- like family of souls, a group of people we randomly meet, who could be our family of souls, like Y said...

Interesting :)