reluctant emotion

"I beg your pardon", very very elegant sentence, almost sounds like a guy trying to impress on the first date, a girl too beautiful who wouldn't give a damn to this guy who is trying way too hard. Isn't that ironic that you keep your heart up your sleeve for the one who is indifferent, uncaring, beyond you, while you ignore and run away from the one who is head over heels for you. Why is it? Is it the sense of boredom, a fear of "not growing" or just a case of reluctant emotion?

Is it the sense of challenge that keeps you going in a relationship? With another person, with your friend, your pet, with humanity in general, with society? Wouldn't be ultimately very boring if you were never challenging enough? the people around you not intimidating? your relationship not threatening? How boring and dull would life be if you were not pushed to your limits, as though you always want to live in that brink... U said I always lived 6 feet from the edge, always there, as though i wanted it, that way... Maybe its true... I would always take learning over security, challenge over safety, and maybe thats how i want to live... I always ended up giving an impression that I am reckless, i argue for the sake of it, but is that how it is? Randomness has a deeper meaning than that, you just have to look at it closely, re-think and you will see it, glaring back at you, the purpose of randomness, the acceptance in the reluctant emotion.

Public humiliation is biggest respect you can pay to your relationship- You believe that you know the other person, and are comfortable enough to push that limit, those boundaries! Now, now, who is going to argue this random thought... hmmm...